They spill from my mouth like chunks of vomit.
Weighty heaps of "Heartfelt" words.
I say them and forget them even faster.
I am a friend to no one,
But, sometimes I'm great at foolin.
So, I'm sorry now, though I won't be later,
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I apologize for being a neurotic waif
forgetting you and those brilliant tears,
losing that connection that we tried to make real,
I'm sorry that my sorry doesn't really mean a thing.
I'm just better at fading then remaining clear.
See those clouds merging with the grey sky,
you can't tell where they end and the sky begins,
thats where I live.
Thats where I forget you in intervals,
making you think maybe he does really care.
Maybe he's just busy.
Maybe something great is taking over his life.
Again, I wish I could say those things are true,
but history would say I am a liar.
I'm just the worst person on earth to call a friend.
And no matter how many times I point these things out to myself,
change never comes.
I keep on keepin on at this drawn out beating,
and forget that my hands are still swinging,
forget that my feet are still stomping,
forget that I'm giving you hope even now,
There's a lot of love in this heart,
so much so that I'll keep on punishing,
long after you have up and gone.
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